What can I say?

Its been about 7 months since I've been on my blog and wrote anything! GEEEZ! I miss venting or just talking to my computer about whats happening with my family and me. To go through everything would be crazyness but as much as life has changed over the last 7 months (first and foremost-Im sleeping on a nightly basis), not much has changed. The kids are getting bigger by the second and Im so lucky to be there mommy. Our house is getting smaller and smaller with each second because the kids are growing so quick. We have less than a year in this house and Im more excited than ever to look for another house!

Im not even sure what to write because theres so much to get out. I honestly dont think Im going to write much. more than anything I just wanted to get back on here and write something! To all of my fans...IM BACK! I'll post pictures sooner than later...or at least, I hope so.

Love you girlies!

Potty Time!

Tess has gone pee pee two times on the potty so far!! Im trying to train her now and its not easy. She has a mind of her own and there is no one that is going to make Tess do anything that shes not ready to do. I really think that peeing will be fairly easy but "number two" will be difficult for her. Its a control thing and I've heard others say that their kid has had trouble with pooping. Let's see....

Who Is My Child?

Im wondering who is the cute little girl that is sleeping in the very girly room? The girl who is sleeping in there was so friendly and never said the word "No" she never shoved her brothers head down when he stands, she never shoved him around or pulled every toy out of his hand. I dont know where that cutie pie went but I would like her back!!! Tessa has turned into a handful overnight. I make sure that I spend time with her alone so she knows that I love her because I feel like all I do is say, "No" and "Stop That" and "Please take your foot off of Jake's head!" Its crazy. She loves her brother and gets so happy when she sees him in the morning but give it 5 minutes and the new Tessa comes out.

What do I do with this new attitude? She screams in public now and doesnt listen! This is all new to me and so completely exhausting!!! Any ideas or thoughts?

Updates

I dont even know where to begin...i'll start with giving you an update on all of use, one by one.

"Jakey"
He's 10 months old now and I cant believe how he's growing. Im trying to get him to say, "Ma Ma" but its not happening yet so I settle for hearing Da Da all the time! Its so cute when he does it too. Hes crawling like a champ and getting into everything that we dont want him getting into. For instance, he loves eating the cat food when we arent looking. And it takes him like all of a split second for him to get over to the dry food and take a couple of pieces into his mouth. Its gross. When I caught him taking the wet food thats when we moved it upstairs. When I say he puts everything into his mouth-its an understatement! When hes outside he puts acorns, leaves, toys, bottle caps, old OR new puffs, ANYTHING in his belly. Im waiting to see some of those items come out in his diaper but I have yet to see that. I'll keep you posted. Jake is pulling himself up and beginning to step in either direction in order to get something he sees. He's quite the cutie and no matter what he's doing he smiles if you smile at him. He's truly the happiest baby and nothing much phases him unless hes hungry or in a dirty diaper. This kid is my heart and soul and he will get whatever he wants from me because I cant take his smile and the way he looks at me.

Tessa "B"

I've called her my "Tessa B" since she was a few months old because I kept calling her my Tessa Beautiful or Tessa Baby and it eventually just got shortened to Tessa B. Shes the love of my life and brings me so much joy. She is the most perceptive little girl I've ever seen. She notices EVERYTHING...and HEARS everything. At this point she repeats things she hears whether she's heard it once or a million times. She's talking up a storm and sings her heart out all the time. Her favotire songs to sing are the a;phabet song, incy wincy spider and twinkle twinkle. Dancing is also a favorite past time of my little girl. NO MATTER where we are if she hears a good beat shes moving her hips to it! I love it! I wish I had that much fun in life!! Tessa loves being the center of attention (what 2 year old doesnt). Speaking of 2 year old...she'll be 2 Friday. My little baby will be TWO already. Its crazy to think that two years ago this coming Friday I gave birth to the best thing that even happened to me. Time is flying and I really want it to slow down.

Here are a couple of pictures for you. I'm going to make a slideshow and put it up for you because the post cant hold all of the ones I want to put up. So until then..enjoy!!

Overwhelmed

Its been so long since I've posted and I'm so tired even writing this but I say that all the time so its no different than any other time of the day. I feel like the kids are growing sooo fast and days just pass by like nothing because Im working and theres never time to sit and relax. God, I cant wait for the summer to be here!!! At least next week is the week before spring break and we have 10 days to hang out in our pajamas all day if we want to. I definently chose the right profession to be in as a working mom. Im home before 3 on most day and get to spend time with the kids before they go to bed so its wonderful.

THey're getting bigger my the second. I took jake to the doctors today and he weighs 16lbs and 11.5 ozs. Last week he weighed 16 lbs and 4ozs. He eats like a maniac and loves every bit of food that I put in front of him. He's gotten two little teeth on the bottom and of course he's biting everything he could get his hands on. His sleeping has improved SOOOO much! I feel like a normal person most of the time. He did a complete 180 when we out him in his crib. We waited so long because originally Tess and him were going to share a room but his sleeping pattern was insanely crzy so we didnt want to wake her up all the time. So until he was 6 months we kept him with us in the pack'n'play. Looking back, all the poor thing wanted was room to move around in and we didnt realize that. But in any case, thank God he LOVES his crib and now he's got his own room and Tess has her's.

Tess is gettting smarter by the minute. I AM NOT KIDDING when I say that tonight she sang the ABC song with almost every letter! Im going to video it because it sounds like Im lying but she sang it with the right tune and letters. And then at the end she sang, "next time wont you sing with me." Did every syllable come out, no, but she tried to say every word and we knew exactly what she was doing. This was the first time I had heard her do this and I almost fell on teh floor. The girl says more words than I know what to do with. Shes putting 2 and 3 words sentences together and its the coolest thing in the world to see. She's growing up and I love watching her play with her dolls and interact with kids her age. Its amazing how much I love her and Jake-there are no words to describe how deep our love is for our children. Its amazing.

Rob and I are doing good. His business is doing fine and I'm working (but wish I wasnt). To All of my many followers-I miss you and would love to spend time with you. Once the spring vacation comes and especially summer then we will definently play. I'm barely keeping my head above water...or at least how it feels most of the time.

Jake's Laugh

Even though this was in the beginning of January there is nothing better than hearing my son laugh and smile. He's the second love of my life.

She repeats everything!!

She says so MANY words on her own at this point but the other night (which was before her haircut) she was repeating everything we say and we were laughing so hard!! Here's just SOME of the words!

Tessas First Haircut

We had no choice but to give in. Her hair HAD to be cut because it was too long and it looked shaggy. It definently looks much better but her bangs were butchered!!! None the less she still looks like my beautiful little angel!

Hilarious

Sampling of Flip Video

Blessings

I sit here as both of my children sleep at the same time and think, "I am blessed." I am blessed to have both of them sleeping at the same time. I am blessed to have two healthy children who bring utter joy to my life (although a severe lack of sleep). I am blessed to have a husband who provides for me and our two children. I am blessed a thousand times over. I dont understand why so many bad things happen in this world but I know at this very moment I feel complete and satisfied with my life and I am grateful to be able to have that feeling. I am sure I will need to draw back on this feeling one day in order to get through difficult times but for now...I am simply, happy.

Here it goes AGAIN!!

I swear that I just did this with Tessa and it was awful but now Im doing it with Jake and its even harder. Someone told me that it would be easier with the second but I disagree. Its harder for me and every inch of my is telling me that Im completely screwing my kid up and messing with poor tessa's sleep too. I tried last week but after a day and a half I saw really no improvement and decided to wait a little longer to do it with him, however after the sleep that Rob and I HAVENT been getting because he is literally up every hour or two every night I dont have a choice. Im completly exhausted!!! And the poor thing is on no kind of schedule and really should be on SOME kind of one. I'm losing my mind.

This is the second time today Ive put him down without being asleep. The first was at 9:30 and he cried til 10:10 and fell asleep for 20 minutes. I got him when he started to cry after the 20 minutes because at least he fell asleep and he was in the crib for an hour (which is what I'm supposed to do). Now its 12:19 and I put him in at 12:07 and I dont hear anything. Well...its on and off but right now hes quietly making little noises but not crying his eyes out. I want so badly to have th ebabysitter here but at the same time I want to hear his cry to make sure that it doesnt change to something being wrong where I have to run in there and rescue my sweet baby Jake. He's the best little man in the world and my love for him is so deep that his cry breaks me. I hope Im not scaring him for life. I'm so sorry Jake for putting you through this! I love you.

Jake's Smile

Jake's Dedication

I want to post everyday but time is going to quick. I feel like I say that all the time but I cant help it because its true...Uh Oh Tess just woke up so I gotta go.

life with jake

Hi everyone .. I've been missing in action from the blog because life has changed soooo drastically with two kids and I don't have time for anything! Besides, Jake is an extremely colicky baby and I literally average about 3 to 4 hours of sleep a night...4 hours if im lucky! I was soo spoiled with tessas sleeping and I knew it wouldn't be that good again but I had no idea how bad a true colicky baby was! Of course he is so much better during the day and all hell breaks loose at night. I've had to keep mhself in check from getting angry with him because hes such a sweet baby and he can't help his belly aches and irritability, but with complete exhaustion set in I simply cant help but get angry.

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I was at the dentist while writing that. Waiting to get a root canal after having him isnt the thing I thought I would be doing within the first four weeks of his life, but never the less I woke up one night crying in pain that I never knew existed. The pain was more than excruciating and my face actually began eating itself (not really), but it did get red and swollen a bit from how bad it was. Thank God thats over with and my life has seemed to fall into a rythm on its own. THe days go by SOOO fast with two kids-I had NO IDEA how easy it was with just Tessa. Two kids definently change everything. I mean I have NO time for me anymore. My toes are a sight for sore eyes!!! No pedicure for me anytime soon!

Jake still has rough nights but we are able to see SOME light through our very long tunnel. He has gone 3-4 hours a few times lately so I know that he's growing up and will eventually be able to sleep longer more consistently. It would have been nice if it was last night-I mean I was up at 12,2,3,4,5, and when he got up at 6 I didnt go back to sleep. Needless to say I was NOT a happy lady when I got up for the day. I was sooooo tired and there are no naps for the weary with two kids (as if I need to tell any of you this).

Its insane how fast life has changed and how quickly time goes now. THere are no words for it...I turn around and its Friday again. Of course Im not working but I know that I will be sooner than later with how quickly the months seem to be ticking by. Nichole and Danielle have had their babies and eventually we'll have our kids getting together! I cant wait for that because we've all known each other for so long and it will be cool to see things come full circle, right? With the lack of time now I have yet to understand how to do laundry on a timely basis, clean, or even shower because the kids require so much (of course). I look at myself in the mirror and now understand why mothers of little kids look the way they do...I have turned into one of them myself. Putting on makeup is more or less a thing of the past but I must say if I had time to put some on every day I would feel a little better about myself. I mean, its one thing to feel like crap but its another thing to look in the mirror and the image looking back confirms how you feel. WHATEVER...as grandma always say, "This too shall pass." I firmly believe that!

Meet Baby Jake

I've been meaning to post since the second I had him, but of course it doesnt work that way. Jake was born on Sept. 10tht @ 8:02am. Being that I had a C-section the recovery has been hard but Im feeling better every day. The hardest part is not being able to be with Tessa the way I'd like to be. She misses hanging out with mommy and knows that life has changed. Even though her life has been turned upside down over the last week or so shes been great and has begun to accept that Jake is here to stay. I'm almost back to myself, but thank God for pain medication because there are times throughout the day where my body aches in every place and without it I would be lost!

My mom has taken off for two weeks to help with Tess and I dont know what I would have done without her help. She's been great and Tessa just loves her Nana! Poor Nana is exhausted after a fully day with her and I know that shes in heaven when Tess goes down for a nap...the amount of energy that girl has should be bottled and patented because its insane! Her happiness equals her energy and its such a blessing every day to see her sweet smiles.

Here are some pictures of Jake. I'll post more when I have more time.

5 Days left!!

I am so excited to meet this little guy who has been growing in me for 9 months. I cant wait to see the fists that have been hitting my right side forever now. At this point he is still breach and its too late for him to turn around-there is simply no room! So one way or another I would have had to have a C-section this time around whether I wanted it or now. I have to say, it does make things a lot easier knowing that Im going in on Friday morning and he will be here soon thereafter. Life is about to get extremely hectic again and of course its right when Tess is getting easier and she's on such an easy schedule...but Rob and I have never been ones to like things easy. We're always about challenges and Lord, this will be interesting!! Everyone says that its sooo hard going from one to two kids and Im sure that they are right, but i had a very hard time when I lost my freedom and independence after having Tessa. Now that I've adjusted to it I really think that things will be ok (chaotic, but not insane).

If any of you have any last minute pieces of advise pass it on!! I'm sure that I oculd use it.

Being that I havent been able to post as much as I'd like the next one will probably be a picture of Mr. jake. I cant wait for all of you to meet him!

Love you all and keep the three of us in your prayers on Friday morning.